tired, gross, and dieing

well the tittle basically sums up how i feel right now...except for the dieing part,i guess. for the past four days i have not gotten less then five hours of sleep a night. not only that but the days have been full of so much stuff. ok, so, i guess i should explain this. sort of give you and idea of why im so tired lol.
Saturday:
-wake up-call friends to organize going to beach-hang out at beach for most of the day-come home exahusted, have shower, go out again
- go to sleep over
- stay up till three in morning
- sleep on overheated air matrise with other person

sunday:
-wake up at four..realize this is too early fall back asleep
-wake up at six thirty realize this is still to early..why am i waking up. fall back asleep
- wake up at 8:30 gives up..stays awake. for about a couple hours..then falls asleep when frinds go groccery shoping for caffine and breakfeast
.- leave appartment, go through carwash, watch table flight out of back of truck. jump out throw it back in.
- goes home. calles friend, goes out again
- hangs out with friend for lunch and goes back to appartment with friend for another sleep over
-stays up till 12-sleeps on couch

monday:- wakes up takes friend (at about nine in the mornging home). comes home and sleeps till 5 at night
-trys to go to sleep at ten, because i have to wake up at six on tuesday, but cant. goes on computer till 1 in morning cause i cant fall asleep

.tuesday:
-wake up at six, feels dead
- catch ferry with parents and drive to whistler to visit older brother
- five hours later arive at whistler see brother for 5 minutes go on ziplines with dad (amazingly fun...zipping hundreds of feet over trees and rivers on a cord..i would deffinitly do it again).that took 3 hours
- have lunch with brother start to drive home with parents

basically affter that, on the drive home we got stuck in a crap load on traffic. stuck in vancouver becasue on one bridge there was a accedent, and on the other bridge that could have been used to cross someone decided that tuesday would be a good day to jump off the bridge and kill themslef so that bridge was closed...if you ever going to kill yourself the least you can do is to take your car and drive off a cliff in the middle of no where. that way you not effecting thoes of us who are still here living out lives..and hey there will be one less car on the road..my word that was a long day. we missed our ferry and i ended up staying in my dads hotel room. sharing a bed with him well my mom sleeped on the couch. being a mom she refused to let me sleep on the couch...for some odd reason. then we woke up at six this morning and because my dad is working in vancouver and cannot drive us my mom and i had to bus to the ferry's and then catch them home. at the moment i feel like i just wanna find a bed and not wake up till tommorow.

but i have a feeling that, that would not be a good idea considering that i have to start my first day of work at one today. but i do no for a fact. that when i get home tonight im going to take a shower because i feel uber gross from all that. and then go to sleep.

on the brightside even though we were traped in vancouver we got to see the fireworks. that was fun...oh my gosh im tired

birthday

well my birthday is getting really close. actually it is tommorow. and i have come to the conclusion that i am just an odd person. i know there are a number of reasons for me saying this :P but i have one main reason for pointing this out now. i am an odd person becasue for the past month i have been counting down the days till my brithday all excited about being nineteen. you know, it seems like an important age. reason to be excited. but now that my birthday is one day away i am no where near as excited. i am actually the oppisit. im kinda like wow i dont really wanna get older i dont wanna grow up. i mean 19 will be a fun age. the time when i can leagaly drink. and go to clubs and all that fun stuff. but it also means more responsibility. i have this bad habbit of sometimes not wanting to acknolage or accept responsibility. i really dont wanna grow up. i wanna saty 18. 18 seems like a decent age sure you cant drink but you can do every thing else. another thing is that 90% of my friends are younger then me. whats the fun of being old enough to drink if you have to wait for your friends.


i have this bad fear of growing up, of getting old. and i know there is this whole thing that people say like no matter how old you get you can still be a kid. and i think i do a decent job of proving that saying. but still honestly i find myself getting scared at the idea of one day being old...being that old lady in a scooter. and i know that is a long way away. but i dont want it to come, i want to stay young. i dont want to get so old that i trun into one of thoes old ladies who cant even function, who gets put in a home just because she is too much hassle to look after even if her family does love her. i dont wanna become that old lady who becomes a hastle for her family.

i know that im overthinking this whole age thing way too much because honestly im only turning 19 im still young. but something struck me the other day. i know my dad was totaly joking but he said "wow your going to be 19 in a couple of days. that means i can legally kick you out of the house". and i was kinda like what..... no.. he was kidding and thats not going to happen.

but on the upside of all this fear i get to go out to bosten pizza and get a vodka slurpie. on thrusday (the day affter my birthday). so that should be fun... maybe just the fact that im excited over a vodka slurpie proves that im not really growing up that much.

i dont want any beer or champaine or anything nice along thoes lines. give me the surgary drink filled with crap and booz. how much do you wanna bet im not even going to like the taste of it ?:P

bored bored bored today, yesterday was better

so today has been one of the most uneventful days that i have had in a long time. i was supposed to get together with a friend that i have not seen since febuary but that did not work out. and it was sorta to late to make plans to go out and do anything today considering most of my friends are younger then me and have school, or they were already out doing something. which left me to sit at home and twiddle my thumbs. so today mainly consisted of sleeping, eating, walking the dog. watching invader zim and hanging out on the computer. and right now i feel so bored i could die ...

some people find it extreamly relaxing to have a day when you do nothing like this... yes that can be true but most of the time for me. i would rather be doing something with someone. or at least have a friend over to do nothing with me. im getting tempted to go be a loner and catch the bus and raid sidney right now..sidney is small you never now maybe i will run into someone i know that i can hang out with.

yesterday was so much better then today. i was not bored once yesterday...well not that i can recal. but then again yesterday was a wednesday, and wednesday has unofically become Laura and shannon hang out day. so i whent to visit a bunch of my friends at lunch at their school yesterday which was fun. i love going back to the old school it makes me feel so popular, consideing about 80% of my friends are younger then me and still in highschool. when i go there i swear everyone has a tracker in their heads that lets them know exsactly where i am. becasues i always seem to get swarmed by friends. which is great.

then later on, on wednesday i picked shannon up from school. we had to run some errands like go to her work so that she could request days that she needed off of work. then we decided that we would go to sidney and make a video for our friend ben who lives in germany. we have not talked to him in a long time and we decided to do something. speaking of that video i still need to lend my camera to a bunch of bens other friends so that this can end up being a good video not just one from shannon and i.

affter running around sidney acting like idots we drove to our friend chris's house becasue he invited to have us over for dinner. chris is an amazing cook by the way. omgosh chris if your reading this i will come over to your house for dinner any time that was good good goood. he made teriyaki chicken and rice yummy. the night continued with us watching the movie high fidelity, and playing brawl. which chris one most of the time. shannon won twice although in all honesty i am pretty sure chris was going easy on us.

yes so yesterday was a heck of alot of fun...well today was. not so much. oh well tommorow will be better its friday tommorow, and as long as its sunny i know there will be an adventure. i can already tell, or at least im hopeing.

update..sorta

so, i orginaly thought i would try and update and say what i have been up to since i gave up on blogging, but that has been over a year and i am thinking that would take up way to much time, and not to mention a heack of alot of blog space, but for key facts for anyone who does not know

-i got my N in july (yay) and im going to camosun now. thoes are the main facts if i think of anything else really big i will post it.

so yes so, what have i been up to? well last night i had shannon and werner over to watch my fair lady. i love that movie it has to be one of my all time favorites. you know how some people have comfort food that they eat when they are feeling sad or whatever? well i have a comfort movie and my fair lady is it. i don't know what it is about this movie but it just makes me happy.i was telling shannon this and she had an urge to watch it. That is why we watched it last night. But usually my fair lady has a habit of just comming on tv..when im going through one of thoes days. I will give you and example. ok so this valentines day i was being a stupid emo single person and going through one of thoes really lame emo days that everyone gets (especially on valentines day) and a crap load of my friends seemed to be out with their boyfriends or their girlfriends or working or just to busy to go out and do anything. and my brother was out with friends, and my parents were out for dinner. so i could not even be the lame kid who hung out with her parents or family :P.

so while i was sitting and being all stupid and emo, guess what came on tv, thats right my fair lady. instantly that movie made me feel better. and i was not sad or lonley anymore. i was being the compleate dork that i am and i was singing along to the songs and everything. which is easier to do when your the only one home.

then last month i got this stupid emo feeling again, and gaing my fair lady came on tv. and then once again i was feeling better. i love this movie it has magjic powers i swear.

so yes shannon werner and i watche that movie and it was pretty awsome, for me anyway. shannon and werner said that they liked it as well which was good. i dislike making people watch movies that they dont like just because i like it, i feel bad. i was acutally kind of worried that shannon might find it boring but she really seemed to enjoy it. and actually said that she wants it now. The only thing that sucked about the movie last night was the fact that it keeped fuzzing out on some parts , silly vhs. anyway that is all that i can think of to say right now.

oh peice of advise. if a vhs is going all fuzzy dont try yelling at it and claping your hands, it does not work, you cant scare it into working. even though i did try :D

long time no talk

so over a year ago i gave up on this blog. mainly for two reasons. one because i belived that i never wrote anything interesting and nothing worth acutally reading, so whats the point in keeping a blog if nothing intersting is being writen right? and two becasue the blog website was being stupid and not letting me sign in. but now affter getting that fixed up i have desided that i am going to give this bloging thing another try. even though i know the majority of the people i know also gave up on blogging a while ago. .

anyway i need to go and catch a bus considering its my brothers day with the vehicle, but i will be sure to up date and fill people in on whats been going on in my life later.