so im losing money. i realize i spend way to much money. not all at once, but a little bit at a time. the thing is when you hear this you instantly think oh thats not good. oh thats bad. but i have come to realize that losing all this money is making me happy. well not the fact that the money is going it self but the reason why it is going. all my money is dissapearing becasue i am spending it on friends. im funny that way yes i spend money carlessly i guess but it is never careless on my self. here is an example of this.

me in a store: "hmm i really want this thing for myself but even though it is only 8 bucks i should not spend the money"

ten minutes later me in different or exsact same store: " omg look at this it would be perfect for (insert friend) it may be 50 bucks but i absolutly have to get it for this person, they will love it".

im bad a saving money when it comes to myself but i love spending money on my friends. weather its paying for dinner for some friends who them selfs are saving up money for school or cant afford it (chris, fiona, addy). or seeing some gift that i have to get for someone (karen, chris, shannon, addy, fiona. any friend actually all depends on what i see in the store). i did that today actually. i went out with my friend brynn and i bought 6 things, only two of thoes things were for me.

what i bought was :

sandals: for me i needed thoughs i have a pair but they are going to break soon...i can tell.

3 buttons: one of them was for me i thought it was funny. another one was for addy i think she will laugh when se sees it although i dont know if she will actually wear it but it will make her laugh and make her happy that is all that matters. and the last one i got for karen. i figured she would love it and wear it. and it will make her happy i actually called her right after i bought it just so that she would be happy. i love making people happy.

1 water gun: well brynn bought one also. i was originally planning on buying this...he he he brynn and i are making evil plans so it is needed.

1 potted sun flower: this was for my mom. i saw it when brynn was buying flowers for his mom for her birthday and i had to buy it. my mom loves sun flowers and i knew it would make her happy and she would love it for her garden. let me put it this way. my mom loves sun flowers so much that when we were in france my mom snuck into a feild and stole someones sunflower. my dad got annoyed and said linda you cant do that, so my mom being emo droped the flower and felt guilty for the rest of the night...to spite my dad when we got home she bought a fake plastic one and stuck it in the lawn and was like "there george...now i have my own friken sun flower that i did not steal" he loled. well now that my mom has a proper garden, i bought her a real sun flower.


yes i like making people happy,....that is why im poorish. oh and for anyone who is going to comment and say oh zeppelinphan stop spending money on me, you dont have to do that, save your money. im just warning you. if im in a store and see something thats like omg i know someone who would love that... there is a 90% chance that im still going to buy it and still be short money. i just cant help it. im poor because i care, im poor becasue im compulsive. im poor because i want my friends to have what they like, because every one deserves to get random presents just for the sake of getting a present. not because of birthdays, or anniversaries, or whatever. its nice to just get random presents.

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(stars are my very obviouse subject change)

random off note i have to say something funny that happend today before i went out with brynn and went shopping.

so i had laundry on the line to dry instead of using the dryer becasue it was a nice sunny day out.

anyway my mom wanted to put her stuff on the line so she asked me to take mine off. and this is the conversation . (keep in mind it started with her talking to me not my dad)

mom: "grab your underwear and seee if its dry so you can take it off and ill put mine up" (again talking to me about my laundry)

my dad gets out of his chair and walkes up to my mom

puts hand jokivly down his pants ,dad: "well i could take it off. but its a little bit wet i think thats cause i peed a little"

me: rofl..omg dad..lolololol

mom: omg go away, why do you always do this to me

me: "dad you have done this to mom before?"

dad: *just smilles and laughs*

mom: *jokative tone* "i hate you guys*...she says this with a smille on her face




....i love my family

so even thougt its not for about two months. and nobody has to get me anything for my birthday. but if for somereason some of my friends out there really feel an urge to spend money on me i direct you to this link.

http://woodstocktradeco.com/mm5/merchant.mvc?Screen=CTGY&Store_Code=WDSTK&Category_Code=ZEPALL


anything from here would make me more then happy

ya im a phan

as most of my friends now i am a huge phantom of the opera fan. and if your not my friend and your reading this im pretty sure it would be easy to figure out by my first coupld very embarassing immature blog posts. any way i have alot of phantom things: i have about 3 copies of the gaston leroux book becasue they are all different translation, i have a piano book, i have two coppies of the susan kay book one is hard cover and one is not, i have a pamflit from when i went a saw the play, i have one book called the journey of the mask (bad published fan fiction), i have a plushy phantom doll the my friend amy made for me, i have a drawing of christine and erik that my awesome friend karen for me, the cd with the music, two books that with the 2004 movie scriped and the actual play scriped that containe detail about the actors and the stage and all that other stuff. i have the 1925 movie version, the 2004 musical version, and on its way becasue i oredered it off of amazon a 1990 mini series version. needless to say i am obseesed i have alot of crap. the sad thing is that this is not my only obsession there is also led zeppelin which im not even going to go into all the led zeppelin stuff that i have.


any way i love phantom of the opera i love the idea of the anti hero. they guy who fights soo hard for something. even thought all the shit that he has been in his life. and unfortanitly in this story it does not end out so well. im not going to go into great detail incase there are some people here reading this who have not read the orginal book , which i highly recoment you do read. might be hard to get into at first but is great. this story is a love hate realationship for me. i love the phantom. i see him as amazing well you know for a crazy girl kidnapping psyco. i guess i find myself defending him saying look at his life look what he went through. he is not fully crazy he is in love and does not know how to express it. i mean look at how socioty has treated him. rideculed him shut him down, pushed him aside his entire life. tried to kill him. screamed and fanted because of the way he looks. i mean in one of the books that i read his own mother wanted to kill him, did not want to look after him because he was apperently so ugly that when born he looked like death and she did not want to deal with it. its sad. but erik is so cool.

i hate the raoul character this is a character who i see gets everything handed to him. does not work for anything cause he comes from a ritch family. he has the good looks. and he also wants the girl that erik(the phantom) is inlove with. i donno maybe this character just fucks with my morals. i see erik who struggled for everything thoughout his life had so many people hate him. and he has a chance for love with christine and then this stupid pretty boy fop comes in and just snaggs her away. i know there are other fans that will dissagree and say that no christine never loved erik or that raoul was ment to be with her. that i do not agree with. i mean there are some versions where i can actually respect that character like the 1990 kopit version which is on its way. but yes raould seems like someone who does not work. just gets. i think thats why strongly dislike this character.

then there is christine with her i donno. i wanna hate her but i cant. i think i really wanna dislike her because i like erik. i wanna yell at her and call her a wossy for leaving erik, for taking the easy way out which is raoul. when deep down inside she really loves erik and she just wants to be with him but instead she goes with the stupid fop for security. thats what i wanna say. i think thats what i tell myself in this story that makes me dislike her. but in reality which of us would chose to stay underground with a mad muscian? i mean i tell my self as an obseesed fan that i would stay with erik i love erik. but inreality no way. all girls would go for the comfort. sorry erik. as a fan it hurts me to say this...but you will still never hear me say that christine loves raoul more. cause that is simply not so. in my mind raoul may have won christine, but erik won her heart. and once you have won that in someone there is not going back!

anyway yes i love this story. this blog went a compleatly different direction then what i wanted but whatever. basically im trying to explain what i love so much about this story and about the characters and that is not even all the ones that i could go on a rant....dont even get me started on charlotta, or the managers omg. lol.

so i think i will end this blog with a quote from the kopit movie that i love:

`For as long as I can remember, I have dreamed one sweet dream only. And though that sweet dream came in countless shapes and guises, it was what sustained me. I now know it was of her that I dreamed. I was born to live down here. But till now, I have never known quite why. Well, I was born so she could come and save me! For that is what she's done. She is the reason I was born. You seem startled. Did you think me incapable of such emotion? Well, it seems I'm not. What an astounding discover! Makes everything I've been through worth the waiting and the pain. What pain? The pain was a dream. All was a dream till this. When the gods give you a gift like that, you do not send it back. I love her, Gerard. And I believe, with any luck, in time, she will learn to love me. The gods would be cruel indeed to have sent her otherwise.``-erik(phantom)

*YAWN*

im tired...i had a fun but long weekend. lets start with friday, i know not the weekend but it counts. so friday usual stuff. wake up at 4:30am in the morning and go to work. work actually went by fast that day. seeing how it was busy and all. after that i went home and wondered around for a bit. normally on fridays after work when i get home i have a shower and i put on my pjs and i just chill for the rest of the day. but this friday i said that i would go and see a movie with friends. well actually the movie was my idea. so instead of getting comfey for and lazing around. i checked my e-mail talked with shannon and addy on msn then went and meet them for dinner. then the 3 of us meet chris and rina and matt at the movie. the movie, one week. really good. i highly recomend it. i love independent movies. for some reason they seem a little bit better then movies with a high budget. i think that, that is partly because independent movie makers are more about the art of the whole thing and the process of the movie. rather then the money. so i after seeing that amazing movie i went home at about 9:40pm and crashed.

on to saturday. yay for waking up at 4:30 am in the morning again. this time worked moved a bit slower becasue i was tired from the long day before. i felt like i was just counting the time hopeing that it would go by faster. then when i did get out i went to the washroom and changed out of my work cloths into some jeans, and my led zeppelin shirt, let my hair down and decided to start driving to mayfair mall. now normally on saturdays i go home and sleep. so i will be more awake to hang with friends that night. but i told friends earlier that i would meet them at the mall. so i hung out at the mall with stephan and addy. which was lots of fun. i bought more converse. i really should stop spending money. i do have enough saved up for car insurance that im going to have to pay in augest and for the road trip that im planing on going on in augest but still.....i spend to much. oh and if your wondering why i did not pass out that day. im just going to say that spencers gift store makes some amazing energy drinks :P.

then that night was sc, and then chilling at chris' place. watching him scream at zombies on a video game. it was fun. then i finaly went home and sleeped. not that well i woke up like 3 times last night. so i wake up today even more tired. then i go and mini golf with matt, and shannon and jon. that was lots of fun. we also went out for a late lunch. and talked about how the meal between dinner and lunch should be called dunch.... it sounds better then linner. i also gave addy my old pair of converse to borrow.

i think its funny i have lent addy my shoes, my belt. and i offered her a shirt. and she bought a led zeppelin shirt. i was jokeing that i was rubbing off at her. saying things like

"im like cancer i spread and there is no cure for me" she lol'd. and then after i said that matt looked at me and was like "you should have told me this before i started dating you". ha ha . oh also.

i bought a gnome today. it was cute and cool and i had to buy it becasue of the i blame it on the gnomes joke that i have with some of my friends. but i had to come home. after karens today instead of hanging out after. not really becasue my parents told me that i should or because i have home work or any obligation. but because im so tired. i need a me day. i feel like im going to fall asleep soon. but its okay.

i had a fun weekend, i hope the rest of you had a good weekend also!!!

im off to put on my pjs. yay comfyness