coughing and dieing

im sick im tired and i feel gross. i am running on high lack of sleep becasue last night i was not able to sleep due to the fact that i was coughing my lungs out most of the night. my lips hurt becasue my nose was pluged and i had to sleep with my mouth open. sure my nose is fine when im awake but as soon as i want to sleep its pluged. i feel sweaty and gross becuase i think this is a feaver. i keep coughing. it wont stop. my dad is in the other room working. my mom is at work. all i want right now is for my dad to be like laura your to sick to go to work. go back to bed i will call them. i feel disgusting, and i just want someone to look after me.

i know that im 20 but is it wrong for me to still kinda want to be looked after when im sick? i cant call in sick my self becasue everytime i try they make me come in anyway. and pluse i will feel guilty becasue they did just give me this upcomming monday off so that i can go on an adventure up to courtney with addy and karen. i really hope im better by then. i mean its not like i can cancell on them or they are out money and cant go up becasue they need an adult (someone 19 or older) to check into the hotel. and thats me. so either way i am going to go. i just really dont wanna go and get addy and karen sick. i dont wanna make them suffer from lack of sleep becasue i am coughing all night.

my dad had this same flu or whatever it was well i was hosue sitting at stephans. and he said it lasted him a week. oh fuck i really hope it does not last a week. ..im coughing alot still. i was in my bathroom and i coughed so much i felt like i was going to throw up. i hate it when that happens. ahhh please let me be better by sunday. or at least make it so im no longer coughing in the middle of the night i dont wanna keep my friends up. maybe if i take one of karens sleeping pills i will be out of it. and wont cough and then they can get sleep also.

ahh i dont want to go to work. im exausted i just want to crawl back into my bed and attempt to catch up on some of the sleep that i did not get last night.

i want someone to look after me well im sick.