school, my future, and my lack of social life.

there is a saying that i heard, and that i also currently have as my facebook status. "sleep, a social life and good grades. you are in college you can only have two of the three". well looking at this year i am honestly believing that, that is true. i have six courses this semester and that is including a practicum. i think i might be running on lack of sleep because i think if i have to go an entire semester without seeing friends i might go a little crazy suffering from cabin fever or something.

but it will be worth it at the end of these two years. i was talking with some of the girls that are in my ECCE classes (early childhood care and education). if you did not know already that's what I'm going to school for. to be a preschool teacher. there was one girl who got offered a job already that is how desperate this job market is. apparently the girl who runs the preschool that she was volunteering at said that when she was done her two years at college getting the degree that she should go back and she will get a job at that daycare. other girls in my class were saying things like oh ya..there are so many preschools in Victoria that are desperate good trained workers its ridiculous. and i have been hearing that they are very desperate for work down at the military base.

but as i look around and i see all these girls in my class a little bit of worry comes over me. oh shit yes these are girls that i am going to be come close friends possibly with some of them because i will have every class with them. but when school is done, and we have graduated. all these girls will be all the people i will be competing with for the jobs out there. where i will have to prove that i am the one that should be hired....that will be fun *note sarcasm*.

i get a little bit less worried about competing with them when i hear a large group of the girls saying that they are just getting this degree so they can have a temporary job that makes them more money then there currant job. then they can go to uvic and get a different degree. hmm so that knocks down some of the competition, but it seems that a lot of the girls in the class don't see this degree as something that will lead to a career but instead a temporary job.

i on the other hand am looking at it as a career opportunity. something that i wanna do with my life because its what i enjoy doing. but there is the little voice inside me wondering if i am going about the wrong way seeing as a good deal of people in my class are not seeing this future job as a career. should i be worried by that? or happy because i will have a little less competition when i graduate.

another thought do i want to work as soon as i do graduate. if i can find a good paying job right away sure. but i don't know what the chance of that really is. even though it sounds good from talking with the girls in my class.

i was thinking more along the lines of traveling when i graduate. there are so many programs were if your young and in your twenties you can go to another country and work in orphanages, or work in preschools. and you can go and do that for a year. that is what i think i would really like to do once i graduate. cause when i graduate i will be 22 that will still be really young. i would rather have the degree then go and work with children that really need help in some orphanage in another country. kids that need the workers and the help. it will be draining. but that is what i wanna do. that seems as more of a way to make a difference then in the preschools here. not that i would not love to work with kids here.

anyway this tangent should probably come to an end. to summarise. i hope i don't die from school this year. i really wanna travel to another country and work in an orphanage or something when i graduate. but if i get offered a good paying job were the people cannot wait for me to come back, or travel for a little bit i guess i will have to take it so i don't come back from traveling with no job opportunities.

do i think to much about my future?